Bazı günler oluyor ki seni çok özlüyorum. Fakat bazı günler oluyor ki hayatımdan çıkıp gittiğin için kendimi şanslı sayıyorum.
Bazı günler oluyor ki seni düşünüyorum başkalarıyla sevişirken. Fakat bazı günler oluyor ki her bir başkasının dokunuşunun senin izini sildiğini, beni temizlediğini hissediyorum.
Bazı günler oluyor ki "Hala seviyorum, şu an gelse gözümü kırpmadan geri alırım onu" diyorum. Fakat bazı günler oluyor ki "Kırk götüm olsa bu saatten sonra ona birini vermem" diyorum.
Bazı günler oluyor ki mutlu ol istiyorum. Fakat bazı günler oluyor ki umarım acı çekiyorsundur, hayatın bok gibi gidiyordur, yalnız hissediyorsundur, parasız kalıyorsundur diye düşünüyorum.
Bazı günler oluyor ki ortak arkadaşlarımızla konuşurken içimden senin hakkında bişeyler söylesinler, nasılsın öğreneyim diye yalvarıyorum. Fakat bazı günler oluyor ki konu senin uzağından geçse bile onları susturuyorum, sinirleniyorum, "Bana o orospudan bahsetmeyin." diyorum.
Bazı günler oluyor ki ortak arkadaşlarımıza, "Taraf seçmeyin, sonuçta biz ayrıldık, bu sizi ilgilendirmez" diyorum. Fakat bazı günler oluyor ki "Sen benim arkadaşımsın! Bence bunu bir hatırlat kendine!" diye çemkiriyorum.
Bazı günler oluyor ki bişeyler yaz istiyorum facebookta, yaşadığına dair bir işaret ver, iyi olduğunu bileyim, çok sessiz kalıyorsun. Fakat bazı günler oluyor ki, bir anda seni facebook listemden silmeye, numaranı telefonumda bloklamaya karar veriyorum (ve yapıyorum da), ortak bir arkadaşımız seninle gittiği mekanda seni de tagleyip sen listeme düşünce Sylvia Plath geliyor aklıma, "No day is safe from news of you" diyorum, senden tamamen nasıl kurtulabileceğimi merak ediyorum.
İlk kısımdaki bazı günler artık çok nadir olmaya başladı.
Beni özlemediğini de biliyorum ama umarım özlüyorsundur. Umarım canın yanıyordur. Benim hakkımda canının yanmasını da geçtim, umarım biri, bişeyler, bir şekilde senin canını yakıyordur. Bir şekilde herhangi bir şey yüzünden acı çekiyorsundur. Mutlu olmanı istemiyorum. Mutluluğu hakeden en son insansın çünkü benim gözümde. O kadar kötü kalpli bir insansın ki, karmanın bana yaptığı gibi sana da adaletini uygulamasını istiyorum.
Seninle ilgili hiçbir isteğim kalmadı. Tebrik edebilirsin kendini.
Lexie: [narrating] Grief may be a thing we all have in common, but it looks different on everyone.
Mark: It isn't just death we have to grieve. It's life. It's loss. It's change.
Alex: And when we wonder why it has to suck so much sometimes, has to hurt so bad. The thing we gotta try to remember is that it can turn on a dime.
Izzie: That's how you stay alive. When it hurts so much you can't breathe, that's how you survive.
Derek: By remembering that one day, somehow, impossibly, you won't feel this way. It won't hurt this much.
Bailey: Grief comes in its own time for everyone, in its own way.
Owen: So the best we can do, the best anyone can do, is try for honesty.
Meredith: The really crappy thing, the very worst part of grief is that you can't control it.
Arizona: The best we can do is try to let ourselves feel it when it comes.
Callie: And let it go when we can.
Meredith: The very worst part is that the minute you think you're past it, it starts all over again.
Cristina: And always, every time, it takes your breath away.
Meredith: There are five stages of grief. They look different on all of us, but there are always five.
Alex: Denial.
Derek: Anger.
Bailey: Bargaining.
Lexie: Depression.
Richard: Acceptance - See more at: http://www.tvfanatic.com/2009/09/greys-anatomy-season-premiere-quotes-good-mourning--goodbye/#sthash.DXpbNxip.dpuf
Mark: It isn't just death we have to grieve. It's life. It's loss. It's change.
Alex: And when we wonder why it has to suck so much sometimes, has to hurt so bad. The thing we gotta try to remember is that it can turn on a dime.
Izzie: That's how you stay alive. When it hurts so much you can't breathe, that's how you survive.
Derek: By remembering that one day, somehow, impossibly, you won't feel this way. It won't hurt this much.
Bailey: Grief comes in its own time for everyone, in its own way.
Owen: So the best we can do, the best anyone can do, is try for honesty.
Meredith: The really crappy thing, the very worst part of grief is that you can't control it.
Arizona: The best we can do is try to let ourselves feel it when it comes.
Callie: And let it go when we can.
Meredith: The very worst part is that the minute you think you're past it, it starts all over again.
Cristina: And always, every time, it takes your breath away.
Meredith: There are five stages of grief. They look different on all of us, but there are always five.
Alex: Denial.
Derek: Anger.
Bailey: Bargaining.
Lexie: Depression.
Richard: Acceptance - See more at: http://www.tvfanatic.com/2009/09/greys-anatomy-season-premiere-quotes-good-mourning--goodbye/#sthash.DXpbNxip.dpuf
Lexie: [narrating] Grief may be a thing we all have in common, but it looks different on everyone.
Mark: It isn't just death we have to grieve. It's life. It's loss. It's change.
Alex: And when we wonder why it has to suck so much sometimes, has to hurt so bad. The thing we gotta try to remember is that it can turn on a dime.
Izzie: That's how you stay alive. When it hurts so much you can't breathe, that's how you survive.
Derek: By remembering that one day, somehow, impossibly, you won't feel this way. It won't hurt this much.
Bailey: Grief comes in its own time for everyone, in its own way.
Owen: So the best we can do, the best anyone can do, is try for honesty.
Meredith: The really crappy thing, the very worst part of grief is that you can't control it.
Arizona: The best we can do is try to let ourselves feel it when it comes.
Callie: And let it go when we can.
Meredith: The very worst part is that the minute you think you're past it, it starts all over again.
Cristina: And always, every time, it takes your breath away.
Meredith: There are five stages of grief. They look different on all of us, but there are always five.
Alex: Denial.
Derek: Anger.
Bailey: Bargaining.
Lexie: Depression.
Richard: Acceptance - See more at: http://www.tvfanatic.com/2009/09/greys-anatomy-season-premiere-quotes-good-mourning--goodbye/#sthash.DXpbNxip.dpuf
Mark: It isn't just death we have to grieve. It's life. It's loss. It's change.
Alex: And when we wonder why it has to suck so much sometimes, has to hurt so bad. The thing we gotta try to remember is that it can turn on a dime.
Izzie: That's how you stay alive. When it hurts so much you can't breathe, that's how you survive.
Derek: By remembering that one day, somehow, impossibly, you won't feel this way. It won't hurt this much.
Bailey: Grief comes in its own time for everyone, in its own way.
Owen: So the best we can do, the best anyone can do, is try for honesty.
Meredith: The really crappy thing, the very worst part of grief is that you can't control it.
Arizona: The best we can do is try to let ourselves feel it when it comes.
Callie: And let it go when we can.
Meredith: The very worst part is that the minute you think you're past it, it starts all over again.
Cristina: And always, every time, it takes your breath away.
Meredith: There are five stages of grief. They look different on all of us, but there are always five.
Alex: Denial.
Derek: Anger.
Bailey: Bargaining.
Lexie: Depression.
Richard: Acceptance - See more at: http://www.tvfanatic.com/2009/09/greys-anatomy-season-premiere-quotes-good-mourning--goodbye/#sthash.DXpbNxip.dpuf
Lexie: [narrating] Grief may be a thing we all have in common, but it looks different on everyone.
Mark: It isn't just death we have to grieve. It's life. It's loss. It's change.
Alex: And when we wonder why it has to suck so much sometimes, has to hurt so bad. The thing we gotta try to remember is that it can turn on a dime.
Izzie: That's how you stay alive. When it hurts so much you can't breathe, that's how you survive.
Derek: By remembering that one day, somehow, impossibly, you won't feel this way. It won't hurt this much.
Bailey: Grief comes in its own time for everyone, in its own way.
Owen: So the best we can do, the best anyone can do, is try for honesty.
Meredith: The really crappy thing, the very worst part of grief is that you can't control it.
Arizona: The best we can do is try to let ourselves feel it when it comes.
Callie: And let it go when we can.
Meredith: The very worst part is that the minute you think you're past it, it starts all over again.
Cristina: And always, every time, it takes your breath away.
Meredith: There are five stages of grief. They look different on all of us, but there are always five.
Alex: Denial.
Derek: Anger.
Bailey: Bargaining.
Lexie: Depression.
Richard: Acceptance - See more at: http://www.tvfanatic.com/2009/09/greys-anatomy-season-premiere-quotes-good-mourning--goodbye/#sthash.DXpbNxip.dpuf
Grief may be a thing we all have in common, but it looks different on everyone. It isn't just death we have to grieve. It's life. It's loss. It's change. And when we wonder why it has to suck so much sometimes, has to hurt so bad. The thing we gotta try to remember is that it can turn on a dime. That's how you stay alive. When it hurts so much you can't breathe, that's how you survive. By remembering that one day, somehow, impossibly, you won't feel this way. It won't hurt this much. Mark: It isn't just death we have to grieve. It's life. It's loss. It's change.
Alex: And when we wonder why it has to suck so much sometimes, has to hurt so bad. The thing we gotta try to remember is that it can turn on a dime.
Izzie: That's how you stay alive. When it hurts so much you can't breathe, that's how you survive.
Derek: By remembering that one day, somehow, impossibly, you won't feel this way. It won't hurt this much.
Bailey: Grief comes in its own time for everyone, in its own way.
Owen: So the best we can do, the best anyone can do, is try for honesty.
Meredith: The really crappy thing, the very worst part of grief is that you can't control it.
Arizona: The best we can do is try to let ourselves feel it when it comes.
Callie: And let it go when we can.
Meredith: The very worst part is that the minute you think you're past it, it starts all over again.
Cristina: And always, every time, it takes your breath away.
Meredith: There are five stages of grief. They look different on all of us, but there are always five.
Alex: Denial.
Derek: Anger.
Bailey: Bargaining.
Lexie: Depression.
Richard: Acceptance - See more at: http://www.tvfanatic.com/2009/09/greys-anatomy-season-premiere-quotes-good-mourning--goodbye/#sthash.DXpbNxip.dpuf
Grief comes in its own time for everyone, in its own way. So the best we can do, the best anyone can do, is try for honesty. The really crappy thing, the very worst part of grief is that you can't control it. The best we can do is try to let ourselves feel it when it comes.
And let it go when we can.
The very worst part is that the minute you think you're past it, it starts all over again. And always, every time, it takes your breath away.
There are five stages of grief. They look different on all of us, but there are always five.
Denial,
Anger,
Bargaining,
Depression,
Acceptance.
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